what a day.

i will never forget everything that happened today.

i'm not only losing my phone.
but someone else.
who's used to be important for me.

i guess there won't be any way to turn things back to its origin.
i know that since the second you open the door for me.
i know that.
it's okay.
i guess you're feeling the same way too.
or you won't do that.

you don't fucking care actually.
you've changed into the way you prefer.
the way you thought it's better.

perhaps it's better for you.
but not for us.
don't try to drag me into the way you want it to be.
you become confident now. i don't know since when you started to change.
what i feel is, the confidence in you have changed into ego.
ego that changes you into a cold person.

you asked me not to show my emotion if i feel sad.
you said it will affect people around me.

well,
to tell you the truth, i won't do so if i don't trust you.
if i don't love you.
if i don't treat you as someone who i wanna share things with.
if i don't wish to get a hug and a kiss from you.
if i don't believe that you are the one who can make me tough after i show my weaknesses.

and if the person loves me, she/he won't mind even if i'm too emotional.

you told me you can protect me last night.
but why not you try not to hurt my feelings so often?

of course you won't realize that. i know you will still insist that you're right.
crap.
nevermind.
when everything's gone, nothing is important anymore.